Everything I knew, everything I believed, everything I expected, read, analyzed and refuted has changed. The truth is you do not know something until you touch it, feel it...EXPERIENCE IT.
Parenthood is not an exercise in planning. Parenthood is a reawakening that your life and the world around you has changed in a single event. I am not trying to defend the seemingly infinite adages commonly referenced by new parents. I think parents should still find a way to travel, live and love their previous world as much as they can. But the hard truth about being a parent is no previous world or temporal reach to reclaim it can compete with the new world you wake up to today.
In this new world, I cannot help but feel scared and rebellious about this change. At times, I want my old world back. I want to believe I am the most loved in my wife's eyes. I want to believe there is something I can offer to the world that is as perfect as what I brought into it. But life always has a way of reminding you that what you believe can be different than that was is reality.
Ultimately, the only way to experience this new world is to adventure through it by gearing up, pushing forward, and like many explorers before me, document it along the way.
~Pops
